My first post in over a year…No words can describe how nervous, excited, and unbelievably frightened I am about the year 2019. Last year, 2018, was a crazy and busy year. From turning 24 in April; moving out on my own in May; getting married in June; purchasing a second vehicle in December; last year was filled with a lot of highs and some lows. I have a mantra that I continually express and try to live every day, “a person’s character is not determined by how many times they succeed, but rather by how many times they get back up after failure.”
I am not perfect nor am I better than someone else. Rather, I am unique and I attempt to live my life through integrity and through the words of Socrates via Plato, “γνῶθι σεαυτόν” (gnothi seauton) or ‘know thyself.’ I recognize that I have faults, and I understand that I erred in the previous year. I feel disappointment in myself, yet at peace. I cannot change the past, nor can I harp on events and occurrences that are outside of my control. I must continually push on and live my life to where I am learning from my mistakes, and improving who I am, physically, emotionally, and mentally.
This year, 2019, will be another insane year, but my resolutions this year have to do with self-improvement. I want my attitude reflecting my principles, while also reflecting the mentality of ‘bouncing back.’ If I have erred in years prior, I want this year to be the year where I resolve my blunders and continually move forward in life, never stopping in my attempt at success.
It is effortless to talk big and just as easy to fail, so for someone to obtain their goals they must work hard and often. I will be the first to admit that I am a procrastinator. The habit of procrastination ends this year for me. Because when I look in the mirror, I am not happy with what I see; and when I reflect on who I am today, I am unsettled by the thought of who I might become if old habits don’t die.
I am declaring that this year, 2019, is the year where even though I may fall, I become who I choose to be, and not the individual who people expect me to be.